Anxiety Update

I realise it has been 2 and a bit years since my last post, but I want to try writing again, and NaNoWriMo was a bust. So maybe blogging is my medium? I hope so! I know nobody will be reading this, probably, but never mind, I'm going to write anyway.

A long time ago I wrote about my anxiety and depression and I even said I thought I was recovering. Looking back at that post now I see just how much things have changed. My recovery was definitely stunted, by a bad break up and a loss of jobs and a variety of other reasons that aren't important. So my condition is very different now, probably a lot worse and definitely harder to deal with. It turns out it's more than anxiety and depression, I'm looking at an Autism Spectrum Disorder diagnosis.

My whole world has been turned upside down, and I'm having to find new ways to cope, and I am doing. I have had to try and find who I am again, but I am trying to embrace the me I used to like and trying to ditch the parts of me I hated. So, I have gotten 11 tattoos and 8 piercings and that is really helping. Now, when I think people are talking about me, I know it's because of my modifications and not because I've left my fly open or something equally as accidentally embarrassing.

I'm looking at other ways of coping, I'm currently looking at a 6 week Buddhist course, I think something spiritual to help me cope might be the answer for me. Exercise just isn't my jam, I know that's the answer for a lot of people and the immediate response for most support networks,  but it's really not for me. Mainly because I've always been lazy - nothing to do with my condition.

This post doesn't really have a point, it's just for me to dip my toe into the water of blogging again.

Elizabeth x